storm in a teacup

Like lots of us, there are times when I don't feel appreciated enough - I suspect pretty much absolutely every person isn't appreciated anywhere near as much as we deserve - some of us get down by that at times, sometimes we're ok enough in ourselves to be alright without the affirmation/appreciation. Unfortunately, my not being thanked for a brew turned into a multi-thousand pound storm in a teacup. Not my smartest move ever, but I don't have to feel totally responsible. No really, I don't.
I'm trying to be gentle with myself and acknowledge that I'm in a place of grieving still. My cat, my marriage, and just all those changes cos nothing ever stays the same. This week I've heard that two of my lovely local friends and key parts of my support network are potentially moving away, one of them abroad. I'm totally delighted for them and know it's a brilliant and right thing for them both. And I'm also scared about the loss. Several of my wonderful friends are no longer physically near and it's important for me to remember just how easy it is for us to pick up our friendship whenever we do get the chance to meet. There's that saying about friends being like stars, we know they are still there shining, even when we can't see them. And technology is a marvellous thing. I Skype my boyfriend most days so we can still see each other as I only get to see him in real life about once a week. And it's hard to remember a time now before texting became a way of staying in constant touch. But nothing beats a hug and I will miss my friends if their plans do come to fruition, just as much as I'll be cheering them on in their new adventures :)

So it's an odd feeling for me at the moment - I'm aware of how incredibly lucky I am and I am connected to that feeling, yet I also feel really very sad - but that's ok - life, and our feelings, aren't always straightforward.

One of the ace things about pets is that you can unburden yourself with them and they don't answer back by telling you what to do, or judging you in anyway Apart from the time I was first at uni and not allowed a pet, there has always been a bundle of fur whom I could curl myself around and sob into their soft coat. I'm very grateful to have friends a bit like that too. Tho maybe not so fluffy on the outside ;)