nicenicenice

The world's my oyster today. After yesterday's meltdown I am clear that today I need to be doing nice relaxing things rather than things-i-ought-to-do. So, I may not get round to reading up on mortgages. If it's the predicted rainy afternoon I may bring down a duvet and watch at least one of those episodes of Jonathan Creek that I've not yet had chance to. Candlelit bubblebath this morning maybe, reading my book til the water goes cold? I may need to make a dish for tonight's party - if I hear from boyfriend that he's well enough to go, he might make a veggie curry, if not I'm wondering if I can get away with counting a tube of pringles as a dish??

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I wrote a couple of lists, and interestingly life isn't that clear cut is it. A couple of the things on my "must do" side turned out to be enjoyable - I took the dog where I wanted to go on his walk (to a gate so I could stare out across fields) rather than where he wanted to go (the nearby field for me to throw the ball over and over again). My "should do" list was way longer than the "want to do" list and I managed 6 from the first and one from the latter - I could probably get a better balance couldn't I? The good news is I'm assembling a dish rather than taking Pringles. It's a real struggle for me not to get overwhelmed by the sadness when I'm on my own. There are things left on both lists for tomorrow in case I am on my own tomorrow too. And I'm celebrating that for at least some of the time I actually enjoyed the time by myself. It's a start.