freebird

Sometimes I feel so grumpy with my alarm - telling me what I don't want to know - what time it is and that the time involves getting up. I guess something similar is going on when people are grumpy with me - I'm just reminding them of what they'd rather not think about. It's not the alarm's fault, it's just doing it's job. And when I point out it's time for school etc, that's not my fault, I'm just doing my job as a parent.

I'm not feeling very free at the moment - feeling bound by rules I'd rather not keep, deadlines I'd rather not meet.

There's potential for shaking a bit freer this weekend tho. My work gathering tonight I need to take a song that means something to me. Most songs mean something to me! I will probably share the seize the day song I go on about. Although something to dance to will also be good - will see what I can find. I've also bought not one but two bottles of alcohol. Me, who manages a second _glass_ if I'm lucky. We'll see what happens. (but do not expect an early morning blog from me tomorrow!!) I definitely need to let my hair down (tho as I'm shaving it off first that might be an odd metaphor) as I've spent much of the day feeling very sad and fearful and tightly wound up. Good job I have an evening of dancing and eating with lovely people. I hope whatever you do this evening there is also joy and friendship.

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2.15am! *checks alarm isn't set for the morning*