Considering I took the day as annual leave, yesterday was not at all holiday like. Monday was such a glorious day of giving. Yesterday I still managed a lot of positivity towards others but struggled more towards myself - trying to manage a whole heap of hurt whilst staying nice to yourself is no mean feat. Nonetheless I worked hard to stay focussed on what my overall aim is - to remain loving and build rather than destroy relationships. My top tip here is not to direct my anger at those triggering it. Ranting is easy when we're riled up, but the person who happened to invoke those feelings doesn't deserve to be on the receiving end of all that got stirred up. Find a friend who will hear your feelings and not get drawn into them, mainly because it's not about them, so they can listen unperturbed and undefended. I'm so grateful to have friends like that :-)Hopefully in just a week or so I'll find out if I'm being made redundant or not. Then I'll know whether I will be able to plan a holiday rather than just use up annual leave. I was glad to see friends and family last year, sleeping in their beds meant a cheap break but it would be good to "get away" this year if I possibly can.
Meanwhile I need to remind myself that there was some productivity in my day off as I had chance to do some of the things I'd been putting off - phoning Virgin to negotiate a better landline deal, starting to organise Christian Aid Week, and even cleaning the bathroom including mopping the floor. Not a day I want to repeat in a while tho so hoping my girly is well enough for school the rest of the week. And then it's half term - more holiday, hurrah!
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