One of my fave songs of the moment is Katy Perry's "unconditionally", as it embodies a way of being that I aim for. The not blinking at people's insecurities about themselves. Take people's bad days as well as their good. Whilst it's my aim, I of course don't always pull it off. When I'm being shouted at, I don't want to walk through the storm - I want to run off and go and sit somewhere cosy instead. Hanging in there when people are struggling, especially when they are struggling with us, is not a fun path. But it's what I'm committed to and I believe it is where freedom lies for us all, as it's how we learn that we are all worthy, accepted, and loved - when we kick off, and when we make mistakes, as well as when we are a joy to be around. For me, there's still the battle I have of wishing I had more control over how the other person behaves, but of course we don't, and love is fully embracing how the other person needs to act, even if it involves rejecting us/grumping at us.
Blogger wouldn't let me comment last night that I was still grumpy. For a while it's been telling me of terrible errors. I hope it's not going to go completely as I do like to blog. I will try and remain positive, knowing that there's no obstacle I cannot overcome...
Good luck with your obstacles too - you're not alone remember! xx
I've changed my browser and that seems to be helping so far. If only life were so simple ;)
ReplyDeleteI'm worn out now, after an emotional day (who, me?) But have good news on the jigsaw front (I mainly worked today, honest, just the odd bit of puzzling). After changing several wrong pieces, it finally, finally has all come together. Ridiculously, when I caught myself wailing "it's too hard, I can't do it!" it reminded me of a similar declaration I made whilst giving birth (yes, I told you it was ridiculous). Sometimes things just feel too impossible. Sometimes even my annoyingly positive levels of positivity fail, and I begin to lose hope. But I managed to give birth and I managed to finish my jigsaw. So I guess we get there in the end even when we think we can't possibly.