vertigo

This may not look very high up. And indeed, where I was standing to take this shot was not particularly high in the grand scheme of things. It was only driving up a pass later that my ears popped. However, taking just a few steps forwards - not upwards, just forwards - so I was then standing on top of the aqueduct and it felt dizzyingly high. It's all about context. So being actually high or low doesn't impact much when there's not much around to signify it. It's only when there is an immediate, relational difference that it matters. Ben tried to talk to me about difference in air pressure affecting our ears but it was too sciency for me to understand. What I did think what that it is about comparing, and that I found fascinating. So, nothing changed for me in terms of how high up I was, what did change was how low I could see my surroundings had become, and it was pretty terrifying. I figured that if I had really really wanted to cross it, I could probably have done so by focussing on only looking forwards. But I wasn't too bothered so didn't feel a need to push myself. And I was very glad I didn't have the kids to worry about.
Of course there are massive metaphors in this - if only I could focus on moving forwards instead of comparing. But it's bloody hard.