This will surprise no-one whatsoever, but I wasn't very good at doing nothing and so perhaps over did it yesterday. I feel tired today but have several events scheduled - they should be ok cos I can walk slowly between them instead of my usual dashing, and they all involve sitting down once I get there.
One of my favourite things to do is touch walls on hot days to compare how much heat different surfaces have absorbed - I love walking past a wall and feel it radiate heat at me. I think we're a bit like that too - we absorb stuff and we radiate stuff. Sometimes we can be clever converters - I feel I've learned ways of listening to people's hurts but not taking them on board as my hurts. I don't so much absorb their pain as hear it and hold it. My own pain I try and deal with - partly by sharing with other good holders of pain, so that I don't radiate that. I definitely feel a dulled version of myself today - and that's absolutely fine. I have low expectations and will be what I will be - and will include being v kind and gentle with myself :)
hmmm, even low expectations were too high! turns out that i do more than i realise, i don't just sit there. And what seems like a short distance when you're well is a long way when you're not...
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