Sometimes stuff can feel like a battle. Sometimes I don't have the energy to fight anymore. I'm not sure that's it about love not winning tho it can feel like giving up on that ideal.maybe it's a mere setting it aside, that I bow out of the battle for a while cos no-one can fight all the time, and I can choose not to engage. My body needs some r and r.
I wasn't sure if it made sense to go on a long walk this morning but I decided it would be good to spend some time with people who had invited me - well everyone - to join them. I grabbed a friends hand at one point and had a weep. I've been weepy all day. Tomorrow is Sunday and so I shall rest. No defending of myself to anyone, no having to stick up for myself I hope. Just a really difficult jigsaw.
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