swords

I support new parents so I cannot possibly moan about how little sleep I had. However one of the tricky things about being in a relationship with someone who works nights, is that on the occasional evening that we spend time together, we are in different zones. I'm not only up this morning to help get the kids ready for school before going straight off to work myself - I also need to be out of the house tomorrow morning at daft o clock to catch the first train to Birmingham. He can sleep til midday both days and makes no sense for him to go to sleep my ideal side of midnight. We have been watching Game of Thrones - it's then no surprise that my dreams involved sword-wielding and fear - who is the enemy? - tho in my dream setting, at a Cathedral wedding. I was watching last night and caught myself thinking "she shouldn't have told someone who she is!" - which is so the opposite of what I actually believe - which is that we shouldn't hide who we are for fear of others finding out. That trust is the only way to build relationships tho it brings with it the risk of exposure, of being let down, of having a sword through your ribs.

I've been struggling of late with the line in the Bible that goes "I have come not to bring peace but a sword". As someone who wants to bring peace but has recently felt that in some places I have been divisive, which has broken my heart, I have never found an understanding of this verse. So I'm really pleased to have read this, which focuses on how we can challenge traditional powerful hierarchies:
http://www.jesusradicals.com/%E2%80%9Ci-have-come-not-to-bring-peace-but-a-sword%E2%80%9D/

I'm going to look out today for where I'm reluctant to trust, and make sure I spend no time at all wary of anyone bearing weapons. Big love :D