lenient

The book I'm reading (about 2 pages in a month - I really want to return the book to my friend but...) has been encouraging me to reflect on the day - where did I feel most alive/full of love/God, and what were the times I felt disconnected? This week I've thoroughly enjoyed chatting with several friends - I found time to phone a distant one and we had a great catch up, and I always love the interchanges I have with any of my friends, by email or kind comments in passing. And I definitely felt alive retrieving the rest of my poster in the rain - several of the strips had been taken :)
As for feeling disconnected - falling out with my kids I still feel alive, but not full of the love I'd like to be. This morning I'm tired and despondent about all I've not managed to do. And I've struggled this week with trying to juggle the working/cooking/cleaning/paying attention to kids balancing act - maybe just as we adjust to being back at school with new rhythms now we have a different school to contend with too? I was v proud of myself for making 2 dinners on monday, a working form home day, but still felt shattered tuesday despite having a lasagne that only needed re-heating. I've been trying to clear out clutter too - never my passion - it's a real battle to let go of stuff. I'm trying to build up to handing my wedding dress over to the charity shop - it's silly that it's taking up space here when someone else could make good use of it. But I need to do that on a strong day. It's been quite a week - I think I'll allow myself some leniency today.