disbelief

I received a phonecall early this morning to tell me that one of my friends was killed last night on his bike. I'm still in shock, literally shaking my head in disbelief. It is very hard to think about anything else.
I'm godmother to one of his daughters. He was godfather to my son. Godparents can do lots of things, I feel it's a flexible role. For me I've appreciated the love and support I've had from my children's godparents - that is what has helped me parent better. I'm going to offer as much love and support as I possibly can to my friend who is now parenting alone.
... Didn't sleep much. Am very grateful that we don't have much planned this weekend. Was good last night to connect with people, in Choir I literally hung on to some of my fellow altos, and then I drove to some friends last night for hugs and reminiscing.
As you know, I love connection at the best of times - physical, emotional, mental. At the worst of times that becomes even more important. Have done well today for being in touch with people. And it's a good job my boy is happy to hug me lots. Big questions as to what's it all about?