emotionally and practically. There's the sense each time of this not being how I had expected it to be when we brought them into the world. And I find it hard, being solely responsible for other people's children during the celebrations. Today we're off to Sandcastle for the day and hopefully all will go well - My plan, instead of being a base with a book, is for total immersion, even getting the extra zone band, as otherwise my girly will be on her own whilst the boys play. Hopefully I will have fun too B-) The party tea afterwards has had much sweat and toil put into its planning (tho not hopefully the actual food). And today the silver lining is we've arranged for the sleepover element to be at their Dads. Meaning not only do I go to choir despite it being a birthday, but I miss out on the sugar high of exuberant kids that results in a sleep -free night.
Having felt so down and lonely yesterday afternoon and night, I realise I've been focussing on where I've not being getting the support I wanted. In reality, my girly stayed up half the night to prepare fun stuff; a neighbour half way down the road has agreed to sign for the go kart, and a friend texted me to ask what my song for today will be. So far it seems to be the proclaimers!!
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