cards

I was sad to learn this week about the death of one of the lovely women in my community. She often gave sweets to the kids when they were little, and was always keen to stop for a chat. I wasn't able to go to her funeral but I did write a card to her family. I never used to be a card person, I get a bit grumpy about the huge profit card industry (and had an ace conversation with someone this week about how skewed it is, no appropriate valentine cards for her in a gay relationship). Anyway, I have started sending more cards as a means of showing love. I managed to make one for my neighbours who moved out this week, and have left one for our new neighbours, welcoming them to the street and hoping they create many happy memories, that we have found it a great place to live and will bring cake round soon. Still no sign of them appearing tho, maybe today will be the day.
I've been feeling a bit unsettled of late, highly aware that we don't know what's going to happen. I don't know why I worry about the what ifs, of course none of us know what is going to happen, and it's so silly to be anxious about it rather than live with the what is now. I guess I have several unresolved things floating round still - no divorce papers or mortgage sorted yet, changes at work and along the street, various health concerns amongst loved ones, and one of my best friends emigrating next week. Instead of berating myself for my worries, I today will try to go gently on my fearful self and remind myself that despite all the changes that are always happening, in 5 years time there will still be love love love. Meanwhile so many people are facing so much more uncertainty. Time to get round to donating.
Today's my last day for a fortnight without the kids so I'll make the most of it with getting on with household chores and some volunteering. And perhaps some loud singing - might as well do lots of what I like :D

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Actually i've stayed in my pjs, to the extent that I even just pulled on coats n wellies over the top to take the dog for his walk - my favourite, past 3 farms. I've also hung out with online friends, and posted something in a group that i realise has nearly 4000 members. Suddenly gone a bit shy to realise I've written something that may be seen by so many people!!