Being the me I want to be

So fear and love again – both contagious, both immensely powerful.

At the moment I am doing a lot of modifying my behaviour – changing what I have been doing – not because I think what I was doing before was wrong, but because someone else does. Does that make me weak? Bullied? I guess if I was doing it because I was afraid of what might happen if I don’t change then maybe I would not be being the me I want to be! However, I’m clear that it isn’t about winning, about deciding who is wrong and who is right. Everytime I hold on to the bigger picture I can choose to change - not because I have to defend myself and who I am and what I do or don’t do, but because I think the most loving thing to do for everyone involved is to not feel I have anything to prove. That – that is the me I want to be J