The theme of my current book group, and subject of a radio interview I was listening to last night, was running away with the circus. I have to say there's not many things I'm less likely to do (cue me thinking of others things I'm unlikely to ever do like take up butchery etc. Anyway, you know what I mean.) This is not only because I don't enjoy performing and am hopeless at things like juggling and tight rope walking (except figuratively, I can be good at both those when we're only dealing in metaphor). It's mainly because I just don't do Running Away. Sure, like everyone I have my moments of imagining heading off for a remote island and lying back and gazing at the clouds without having to worry about responsibilities. But not only am I just too sensible, I also actually know I wouldn't enjoy leaving behind all those I am in connection with. So after a couple of minutes of clouds scuttling by, I'd be wanting to text my kids, arrange a visit from friends - I don't think I'd escape cos I actually have set my life up in order to be bound up rather than free from (relationships, not stuff, we can all be more free from stuff!)
That's not to say the occasional holiday wouldn't be nice. But tricky as I find conflict, and staying in at times, I'm more likely to be the one running towards the Sorting It Out, rather than away from it. So if you like having me in your life you can breathe a sigh of relief - I'm not planning on running away anytime soon :)
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