I was incandesently angry yesterday. I raged in my head and got some thoughts down on paper which helped. The thing about anger is that if it's directed at people, it's not usually helpful to then share that, and so whilst it was useful to write about it to order my thoughts and get clarity about why I was so cross, the internet is no place for it. It definitely helped me reframe the situation tho, so I do recommend writing, or talking to a good listener, as a way of dealing with our fury. This week I have managed to reframe my anxieties so have shifted from a foolish victim to a genius healer; and also from someone with sour grapes to someone of great wisdom. I love how reflection can help us see ourselves in such a better light and I'm grateful to those who sit with me - literally, and in my head as they've told me so many times before of my loveliness that I can hear it anyway :)
I am pleased to say that I'm now looking forward to tomorrow. I was worried about getting it wrong. I still am, but I'm hoping that won't spoil my enjoyment of the day. My favourite potential t-shirt slogan of the week is "MAKE MISTEAKS" but they are not encouraged at an international competition. After a long time of trying to attain perfection, I'm glad to be in a place of now preferring to gain wisdom by making and learning from mistakes, so it's a shame to have the pressure of getting everything exactly right.
I have to leave at 9 am and won't be back til well over 12 hours later. So a whole day of fun with people who know how to sing and bring joy to people - should be good! But first there is today - I've had a lie in and I'm going down with a cold so plenty of fluids for me whilst I work...
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