doing what I want :)

I understand that delayed gratification can be a good thing, but it's something I'm working on avoiding :)
I've noticed that I sometimes put off things I'd like to do because there are more sensible options. So, I might want to eat a certain thing, but know that there are other things that need using up sooner, so I have those instead (no bad thing, but shouldn't mean I never eat what I fancy).
Even more bizarrely I do the same with books. I have books I want to read, and books I'm less bothered about, and sometimes I read the latter cos I think well I won't want to keep it after, so if I read that I can then get rid of it and declutter, whereas if I read the one I want I don't actually make any space. How warped is that?
So I'm going to focus more on doing what I want.
And also have been inspired by this lovely poem:

Courtney Walsh

Dear Human

Dear Human: You’ve got it all wrong.
You didn’t come here to master unconditional love.
That is where you came from and where you’ll return.
You came here to learn personal love.
Universal love. Messy love. Sweaty love.
Crazy love. Broken love. Whole love.
Infused with divinity. Lived through the grace of stumbling.
Demonstrated through the beauty of… messing up. Often.
You didn’t come here to be perfect. You already are.
You came here to be gorgeously human. Flawed and fabulous.
And then to rise again into remembering.
But unconditional love? Stop telling that story.
Love, in truth, doesn’t need ANY other adjectives.
It doesn’t require modifiers.
It doesn’t require the condition of perfection.
It only asks that you show up. And do your best.
That you stay present and feel fully.
That you shine and fly and laugh and cry
and hurt and heal and fall and get back up
and play and work and live and die as YOU.
It’s enough. It’s Plenty.

More lovely words here: http://soul-lit.com/poems/v4/Walsh/index.html