i had a dream

a dream in which everyone got on. there was shared laughter. everyone was equally welcome, everyone knew they were wanted, everyone joined in.
as always, i shall keep on trying to make my dreams reality.

everyone here is tired and not fully well, so more likely to be grumpy than sharing in laughter. But we don't have much planned for today, so hopefully getting on won't be impossible.

i know that sometimes to be real, we have to share how we have been hurt before we can move forwards. but time is so short - yesterday i discovered i could move forwards as there was no time to show the hurt - the shiny surface might be scuffed but it is still shiny so I can choose to focus on how bright it is rather than the imperfections. I've discovered that in all my relationships this is a more fun way to exist. But I know it's not always possible - sometimes I want to point out the scuffs, the hurts, and seek some kind of acknowledgment of it, or apology. Maybe this is what patience is - knowing that I don't need for wrongs to be righted before I can move on, cos one day it won't matter.