Spoiled

 I'm enjoying getting lots of good wishes this morning and instead of feeling lonely it's nice to have time alone to reply to everyone. So many people want me to have a special day. Birthdays are good for that. And I've seen a timely piece on how we can sometimes feel a sense of entitlement that can get in the way of appreciating the what is, in every day. I'm grateful to have several people in my life that for whatever reason seem to unintentionally spark ideas in me. The entitlement thinking came from one such friend. It's especially easy on my birthday to feel a sense of entitlement. I feel the kids ought to not fall out; I could get sad about making my own brews.

Another comment has also got me thinking - I like how my brain can pick out a word and then race with thoughts. So one wish is that I'm spoiled today. I totally get what the intention is there - they know that appreciation and care matter and hope I get to feel them in abundance today. Birthdays are a fab device for getting to focus on those we know and love that would just be impossible to do with everyone year round. So much as I would like to send a personal greeting every single day to everyone wishing them a brilliant day and reminding them how much they matter, I just can't do that. I wonder how we could create that daily vibe tho? I've not yet finished the blog I started about greenbelt. Whilst there I was really able to feel the love - from strangers, old friends, new friends, God. We're certainly not spoiled if we get to bask in that feeling frequently - it's how I wish we could all live!

I guess there's also something in the concept of being spoiled where excess is a possibility. That whole entitlement cos its my birthday thing again. That I could break out from my usual habits that frequently involve a certain degree of self denial, so for example, I could choose a drink other than tap water. Or more likely, have that extra cake or 3! And yet I don't want to spoil, as in go off, or be spoiled, as in that person who because of their sense of entitlement thinks they are more important than anyone else. So I'll be mindful of that. Whilst revelling in the outpouring of love. Hope you can feel the love too, even if today is not your birthday so maybe people are less likely to remind you how strong it really is.
Xx