There are two things I know I need to be doing at the moment. I actually think they are things that we all really should be doing all of the time. They sound easy and yet I'm finding them tricky.
1. Stay present. Being in the present is actually the only place we can be, but the pull is immense to worry about the future or dredge over the past. As soon as my mind moves away from the now I wobble. I'm trying really hard to arrange as much as I can to keep me present, it's when we're in our flow. I manage this when I'm working, and when I'm singing with others. Music on my own is much harder so I find it difficult driving anywhere with the radio or cds. And spending time on my own is just challenging. I'd hoped to do a whole day of drumming tomorrow but it's been cancelled so will have to motivate myself to do something else in the morning, then there's a rhythm jam and a choir gig later. Trying to counter the loneliness can feel like a full time task, I dont know how to see it as an opportunity instead of a battle.
2. Looking after ourselves. What would the world look like if we all were kind to ourselves, met our needs and were balanced and content? Why do we struggle so much to care well for our body/ mind/spirit? I'm aware that there's a whole lot of things I could do that would be good for me right now - phone a friend, pick up the inspirational book, get an early night. Instead I've consumed lots of chocolate, so the sugar hinders rather than helps.
I know what I need to do. It's the putting it into practice that's not so easy.
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