chess

Despite best laid plans the day did not proceed as expected. To try and salvage some joy, I suggested my son remind me how to play chess as its about 3 decades since I played. I don't think chess is a game for me.  I'm not a plotter. I'll call it living in the moment but it's more likely laziness - I just cant be bothered to try and work out what might happen next and concoct strategy accordingly. So I go 'let's just see what happens when I do this and then I can consider my next move then'. This is not a good way to play chess, my son had thought things through much more carefully :-) I was proud of him but also like my attitude. I used to be better at forward thinking but like the reduced effort of just trusting the now. (it's ok cos I dont want to be a chess champ). It's perhaps why I find mortgage, pension and insurance so tedious - I can't imagine being alive in a distant future so have no desire to debate a 20 or 25 year term.
Once the kids had left the next 19.5 hours on my own seemed impossibly long as I was feeling so down. But I have managed various tasks and even repainted part of the bathroom. A friend has cheered me up and helped remind me what I think is important. Tomorrow I will again be singing tipitina's 'you are a blessing', the second time in 3 days. Friends are indeed blessings. Hope you get to hang out with some of yours xx