Rollercoaster

I had such a fab day yesterday, my heart felt like it would burst with how much love and joy was in it – no space for fear whatsoever J I only ever seem to get glimpses of how it might be to live that trustingly tho – the doubts then come back. What I need to hold onto is the constant truth is I am beloved, whether I am aware of that intensely, or can barely register it. Obviously, the feeling of elation is fantastic. The downs are much harder to live with. I notice that some other people appear to live on a more even keel and wonder if I could somehow try that instead, maybe pace myself so that the highs don’t get so high so that the lows don’t get so low? But I wouldn’t do away with my extreme feelings. I have had lots of great uninterrupted chats with my girly this weekend. I was telling her that even tho I don’t like the times when I feel sad, I would miss my emotions if I didn’t have them. To which the smart cookie replied “You wouldn’t. If you didn’t have emotions you wouldn’t be able to miss them…” How she makes me smile J