Being needed

I know that one of my things is to feel needed. It’s why when I’m feeling low I throw myself into work, or reach out to others. Which works as a strategy, and has its merits, but probably the healthier thing to do is to look at how I feel if I am not needed. To try and get in touch with my sense of worth that’s not dependent on being worthwhile.

I’ve taken the day off today to spend with the kids. However, after a week of being away from home, what they mainly want to do is not much, play with their stuff and each other and it seems I’m only really needed to keep the roof over their heads and sometimes be an extra player in monopoly!

It suddenly occurs to me if this is why I’m such a fan of breastfeeding. It is amazing to be able to provide everything your baby needs, just as we did whilst pregnant. My fave breastfeeding fact is that the German word for breastfeeding has nothing to do with either breasts or feeding, the two things we can often get hung up on. It is “stillen”, to still or calm our babies – whether it’s the closeness, or the nutrition, or the connection, we don’t have to separate out what it is doing, it just does!

Anyway, my monopoly skills are being sought – and, I do know, my company too J