Like lots of us at the moment, I'm not my best self. I'm irritable, struggling to remember that everyone is doing their best. I'm angry with the government, with racism, with the seeming carelessness of strangers and also those I know. I want to be kind, patient, compassionate. I don't always manage it and my frustration seeps out.
I know that having a Tory government has a life and death impact at the best of times and right now we're not in the best of times. I can't change what it does tho, so have to stay focused only on my actions. I am cross by what I perceive as selfishness of some people but I'm not in their shoes so can't judge the decisions they make.
So what can I do instead of seethe helplessly with indignation?
I can keep noticing where I see others struggling too, and reach out instead of leave each of us isolated.
I have ordered some books to keep working on my own white privilege.
And I need to try and let go, when people make decisions different to those I'd make, even when they impact on me, I can choose to not respond ( its hard tho!). And be super gentle with myself. I'm doing my best too. None of this is easy.
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