I've noticed how reliant I was on completing my timesheet as a justification of time spent purposefully. I am feeling a big pull to undertake tasks with visible results so that others can affirm All I've Done. Tangible achievements crossed from a long list. I feel a bit like there's no one I'm accountable to without having anyone to send the timesheet of my life's activities to. It's all rather odd.
The clutter is definitely decreasing (still considerable way to go). I appreciate the freshly painted walls as I pass them and have constructed a step by step plan for the next stages. And I keep finding energy for small bursts of action despite feeling so ill with a rotten cold.
I can see why people feel despondent when job seeking. There's so much status and sense of self in what we "do", our employment. It's all good experience, these life lessons.
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