I'm pleased with how chilled I'm feeling today (considering I have both an interview and the dentist this morning). Some days I fret about the future and potential paperwork and income worries. Mainly tho I'm holding onto some of the insights from the embracing uncertainty book, and am able to trust that it's about journey not destination, and that I can't stop the rain, so just need to let it fall and enjoy it rather than protest about my inability to prevent it.
It helps that today's interview is not for a job that would pay the mortgage. So if I get it, great, if I don't that would mean more capacity for whatever mortgage paying job I get. Not being invested in the outcome is such a stress relieving approach!!
Ultimately I believe that if we so choose everything can be an opportunity to love and to learn. I'm currently learning more about trust. I think a time will come when I will be looking back at this period of my life from a very different place (hopefully happily in a new job that I enjoy where I am making a noticeable difference). I will be glad I made the most of the time to catch up with friends and house cleaning. I would not want to look back and wonder why I spent the time miserably. Which isn't to say we shouldn't feel miserable. It's just that this strategy is for me, today at least, working well :-)
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