I have a friend whose spirit of adventure I greatly admire. She's encouraged me to have a joy filled and refreshing time in Belgium. That is my plan, and in order to do so am going to remind myself lots that I'm not responsible for anyone else's fun, only my own. I'm a big believer in that we create what we experience. This is not to deny the hideous things that can happen to folk that can floor us, but that for me attitude is everything. I'm well aware that with operation stack still in place and the motorway to Dover closed, the journey has the potential to be fraught (we don't do that bit til tomorrow tho), but I'm nonetheless excited and have worked out how to say "I spy with my little eye" in French.
Meanwhile my optimism is firmly in place - I know that my optimism is simultaneously appealing and irritating, but it is irrepressable. I know its a fine line. When things feel bleak, a situation may not be helped by someone cheerfully suggesting it will all be alright when that is Not How It Feels At All.
And yet.
My life experience this far leads me to know that even when it feels hopeless, it never stays like that forever. Something shifts and our creativity is released and we shuffle a bit and are then able to see things a bit differently. I may need to remind myself of this if I'm trapped for some time in a queue.
I think I model myself on the people to whom I feel immense gratitude, those who have resolutely stood by me when things have felt unbearably tough. You - and several of you will be reading this - have not called me silly for finding things overwhelmingly hard. You have stayed present, offered me practical and emotional support, and consistently pointed out how far I have come and just how much there is to stay hopeful about. Thankyou.
Meanwhile, having watched big hero 6 last night, for the second time, I'm surprised I've not blogged on it before. As you know, I think kids films are the best, and wholeheartedly recommended this one:-)
... All going well so far. i've just hoovered so much gravel out of my car I must have improved my fuel consumption no end! I've then crammed tons of drinks and snack bars into every little space - one of the joys of my car is it has loads of little drawers built in :D And here's a fab quote for today and always:
No regrets just lessons
No worries just acceptance
No expectations just gratitude
Life is too short
Still not there yet, left 2 hours late cos of scout. Minibus breakdown. Reasonable run til this last hour when we have only moved 0.3 miles. Might not have time to blog later or til on ferry tomorrow as need to sleep at some point!! It's currently after midnight and still a bit to go...
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