Absence makes the heart...

grow fonder?

get forgetful?

grieve fervently?

I think it can be all these and more. I realise my mistake. Yesterday I was trying to work out my summer holiday childcare. But trying to do that whilst I'm apart from my children was just unbearable – I don't want to imagine any more time away from them. I need to wait til maybe 20 mins after they're back tonight when they're already bickering, and then it might be more possible to picture positively.

I find it so hard not being with those I love. There are so many people I'd like to be with more. One friend we have found a single night where we are both free so are intending to meet up halfway between us, pitch tents and catch up, then go back again. Another friend I've not seen in ages it doesn't look like I will get to see, she's just too far away. 

I'm having a party at the end of summer to celebrate being 40 and so many people have shaped my life that I'd like to have celebrate with me. I'm really hoping loads of people will be able to come and hang out for food and singing. Meanwhile I will have to keep figuring how to stay in touch. Getting the invite finished would be a step towards that, so that's on the long to-do list for the morning. Hope you get to enjoy hanging out with your loved ones today too :D