Steadying

I have spent the last 8 years alongside some powerful characters in Robin Hobb's fantasy world of wolf magic and dragons. One of my friends recommended her books as a great place to escape to whilst feeling the rawness of my husband's departure. Several trilogies later, I have been reluctant to reach the very end but now seems a fitting time with my own new life chapter about to begin. Despite the unlikeliness of me finding delight in tales of torture and destruction, I have loved the connectedness of the characters (some of whom can contact each other through thought alone, a gift I'm especially envious of when in an area of weak mobile signal. Not understanding how it works, I did wonder if yesterday's drizzle made it even harder to get through cos I couldn't even get my one working spot).
One of the main teachings for me came from the wolf who lived in the moment. He was good at advising people to not waste energy fretting. If an opportunity arises to sleep, far better to do that and be fresh for the challenges ahead than waste the time worrying. It is easier said than done but is wise.
Not only have I said goodbye to my Farseer friends in those books, I've also finished "feel the fear" again. It still has so many profound lessons for me, I need to keep rereading it ( I rarely reread a book) and is what helps me to stay more in the now rather than panic about the future. I don't know what is going to happen in the next few days, but right now the breath of the dog is warm and steady and lovely.