I have to buy a pack of replacement bulbs for my car before I can legally drive in France. I’m hoping this will be an easy to achieve task – I live in a place where I can just pop into a shop and buy a pack of spares for “just in case”. I live in a culture where it’s easy to chuck something out that doesn’t seem to work any more, where little seems cherished.
I’m in a relationship with someone who makes me happy. Does this mean I’ve “moved on” from my marriage? I certainly don’t feel like it’s possible to “replace” what I once had. And I’ve noticed that some of the times I’ve felt most self doubt is when I feel that I have been “replaced” – when I see someone else sat where I used to.
And it’s not just in that relationship. There are people in my life who I now am in much less contact with than I used to be – they have moved elsewhere, or I moved elsewhere. I’m aware they still occupy a very special place in my heart even if we no longer hang out and share in the way we used to – I may now spend less time with them, but they can never be replaced.
For me the current issue is how I celebrate every encounter in the present – it will be the only one like it – and not spend my time so sad that the previous encounters have already gone – nothing stays the same and the now is the only place I can be, trusting that all that’s gone before is still held safe and no-one is getting “replaced” but we’re all getting to live in the present as we move forwards.
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