colouring in

Some people may say that spending over an hour creating an elephant picture was not a good use of time. To those people i may well stick my tongue out, and remind them that this is my life. I had such a sense of achievement for turning an idea into a reality (esp as i managed to use technology to do so) and was most definitely in my flow (i do love colouring).

Do you have conversations in your head that go along the lines of "I'd like to do that" "but there's so many other things i ought to do instead" "but i'm going to do this anyway, just because i want to..." I so rarely make that decision to grab the opportunity to do what i want, not what i ought.

I have been reflecting this week on how i _ought_ to be living my life. Should i be doing more paid work? I had a great discussion with a friend about it, and i honestly think that each of us have to work out what it is that's right for us as to how we spend the time we have. The contributions i've made to society this week, and the moments when i've felt especially fulfilled, have not necessarily been the times i've been doing paid work. It's been those times that i've had capacity to listen and to connect. that's what has me look in the mirror and go yes, this is how i'd like to be living my life if it was my last day. that and using felt tip pens...