I'm not feeling at my most hopeful at the moment. I didn't even make it to church yesterday, which is unusual. I applied my remedies tho... Saw a friend, ate nice food and had a good sing - karaoke in the lounge by myself, the dog slightly perturbed by my enthusiasm.
Part of it stems I think from my recent entertainment being dystopian fiction. I think the tv programme 'Years and years' is brilliant. Set in the not too distant future, I have found it depressing because I think it's so plausible. My book group book, The Circle, also doesn't seem impossible, with its obsessive watching of folk and compulsion to acquire "likes". Meanwhile the Tory leadership contest has its own dystopian feel yet is an actual reality going on in my background, nothing I can do about it so I need to focus on the things in my life I can influence.
Years and years ends this week and I get a new book group book on Wednesday. I think I need to seek out that which brings joy and hope so will keep my eyes open. There's an abundance of flowers and a whole lot of lovely people out there. That's what I need to fill my time with.
Monday, 17 June 2019
Sunday, 2 June 2019
Managing risk
It's been a tricky old time, not much wiggle room for anything. The grass is as high as an elephants eye (almost) and blogging hasn't happened. I bought myself a further copy of embracing uncertainty, as I was uncertain where my current copy is :-) but not even opened that. Still hopefully just a few weeks more and then hopefully things will be on a firmer footing.
Meanwhile I've been annoyed by insurance and need to make a sensible decision about my girly's phone rather than a knee-jerk reaction to the extortionate amount I paid last time. It can feel hard to know what to do about protecting against a potential future when of course we don't know what the future holds. I wish I could just live in the now, and not have to make decisions about pensions and insurance. Being a grown up sucks sometimes.
This weekend I'm trying to imitate my dog instead. He doesn't seem troubled by what is to come and spends his life sleeping on the sofa, eating, and the occasional bit of curiosity. Sounds good to me.
Meanwhile I've been annoyed by insurance and need to make a sensible decision about my girly's phone rather than a knee-jerk reaction to the extortionate amount I paid last time. It can feel hard to know what to do about protecting against a potential future when of course we don't know what the future holds. I wish I could just live in the now, and not have to make decisions about pensions and insurance. Being a grown up sucks sometimes.
This weekend I'm trying to imitate my dog instead. He doesn't seem troubled by what is to come and spends his life sleeping on the sofa, eating, and the occasional bit of curiosity. Sounds good to me.
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